2014!
Well, we did it! We made it to 2014.
It overwhelms me when I think about how much has happened
throughout the course of 2013 and how much is going to change in the upcoming
year, in the work place, where I will live and who I will be living with, the
fact that I’ll be MARRIED to my best friend and so many other great things to
look forward to. 2013 you have been beyond great, beyond surprising and beyond
unforgettable. Weekend trips, Family trips, Getting engaged, Missions trips,
Graduating, Moving out on my own, so many ‘firsts’ that I can’t even name them
all! My heart has been flipped and flopped this year, built up and torn down,
but has been refined through the fire and you have closed doors, but opened so
many new windows and I am so excited to see what 2014 has in store for me, for
what God has planned for me, for Mackenzie and I, and how we will be starting
our new life together and where God will lead us; where he will guide us.
One of my friends made a vow last year to write a blog post
every week for the whole entire year, and she did it! So, I’ve been inspired to
do the very same thing! I’ve found that blogging has really been helping me express
things that have been going on in my life, the positive and the negative. I’m
really excited about this new years resolution!
This past year I learnt a lot about myself, things I have
never come across or thought I could do on my own until I was put through the
task and pushed on to the stage, for the final call and for the final cut. You
never really do know how far you can go until you try.
Try and try again.
When I was going to school for my ECE, I never really put my
head up to see what was going on around me, and now that I look back, I wish I
did. I was so focused on the task at hand that I didn’t come up for air, I just
fully immersed myself into my work, my passion, my everything. I was told that I did my job well, I did my
projects correctly, and that I had this undeniable passion for what I did and
molding the hearts and minds of little ones. Now that I am in the field and fully
qualified, I can see what everyone meant when they said I was a ‘perfect fit
for the job.’ It’s just hard to take that seriously when you’re in the middle
of exams and projects and just trying to survive and get your diploma. But now
its all different and everything just comes so easily, I click with the
children and with the parents effortlessly, It’s fantastic and I love it. There has been some ups and downs in the past
few months, things that have really built me up and other incidents that have
really taken a toll on how I feel about my job and my position as an Early
Childhood Educator and if I am a good fit or not. Through these struggles I
have shed a lot of tears and held on to a lot of hurts, but one thing that has
rang true is that God is just. God is great and God has a plan. No matter what
ends up with my work and my job, it is all in Gods timing and his planning.
Having this knowledge has helped me immensely and has brought a peace over my
heart that I don’t feel like anything else could’ve calmed the seas in my heart.
In the decision to start my employment with Wind & Tide,
I was required to move out to South Surrey (the nice part I promise!). This was
a really big step for me and I didn’t know if I could really pull it off
without crawling back to daddy in 1 week. When I first moved out it took a lot
of nights of Mackenzie staying until 11PM or whenever I fell asleep, I pestered
my landlord to make sure my alarm system was working correctly and, still to
this day, have my ‘instant’ set on my alarm when I am home alone. I try to
never walk in the dark – it scares the bejeebus out of me and if I do have to,
I am on the phone with someone the entire time until I am in my house, with the
alarm set. Things have been going really well though, I have found a lot of
great deals on furniture for my place and was given a lot as well. I have ben
decorating my place a lot and been doing some DIY’s because I have so much time
on my hands. Which I am loving! Being out ‘in the booney’s’ does have its
downfalls of not being able to go out for coffee whenever with friends etc. BUT
I am able to get a lot more done around the house and have a lot more ‘me’ time
to spend.
(Oh..and maybe I started watching a show or two on Netflix….
Or three…or four.)
Another huge thing that has been an unreal change in my life
is my relationship with Mackenzie. Things in-between us are amazing. Ever since
we have been engaged, he is so much more thoughtful, so kind, so loving, so
generous; it’s almost like all the qualities that I love so much about him have
all been super charged. I don’t know what it is, maybe I am just seeing it more
now that he is going to be my husband, or if it’s coming out more because I am
going to be his wife. But, either way, our relationship is the best it’s ever
been. We are also going to these meetings on Sunday nights that is aiding us in
working both on our relationships with God and our relationships with each
other. Also, coming up in the next few weeks, we will be starting a new book
devotional called ‘Love Dare’ – I am SO pumped for this! We will be going
through this book with Anya & Bryan (a couple that attends our church and
has been married for about 5 years). I am really blessed and excited to have
them speak wisdom into our lives individually and as a couple.
This is huge for 2014!
Oh gee.
I just love him so much.
I am so blessed to have him in my life and so excited to
start my life with him and to start planning our future together. He is the
only person who knows me inside-out, he knows all my flaws, my insecurities and
all my failures.
But he believes in me,
He believes in my triumphs,
He believes in my success’
& he believes in my love.
To have someone believe in you as much as he believes in me;
it’s unfathomable, endearing and beyond understanding.
I really anticipate what God has planned for us throughout
this upcoming year. There has been talk about where we will live and what we
will be doing in our lives together and apart, when and how many children we
would like, and when we would like to buy a house. All of these things require
planning, and not just quick planning, yearly planning and it’s all been on our
time. Not God’s time. This is something that Mackenzie and I will be focusing
on for 2014, God has been speaking some things to our hearts about how we are
to live our lives and what and how we will proclaim his love to those around
us, both near and far. There’s a lot to plan, to discover and to pursue, I’m
really scared, but it’s that good kind of scared.
Bring it on 2014,
I’m Ready.
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